BERYL.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009 { 2:13 AM }

heyo people,

i know i long time nvr blog ler
hahas.

well these few ~~days~~ weeks i mean,
many cold war with baby.

but i am glad tht is over ler.
went to clementi today to meet baby, tgt with mummy :D
but was late due to some reason. grrrr
waited for damn long time for de IO to arrive.
so... YES, change IO liaos.
at least this IO is willing to listen.

after awhile, went to JP tgt with baby.
headed for de arcade first. played JUBEAT.
wooots woooots.
den played de street basketball shoot out.
hahas, won baby and lost to baby.
den maximise tune(idk if i spell it correctly marhs).
hahas,but baby like tht driving game hor [[:
played mario kart, yehh, won baby hehes.
den jiu head to GV to collect my membership card [[:
weeee!

after tht walk around again [[: wentto have lunch
wha piangz, de food hor
very de horrible terrible & vegitable lehs.
oh and horrigitable.
hehes.

so we enter challenger to look for baby's mouse for lappy
and we came across de xbox360,
my 2nd time coming across it but first time playing it
so wow, streetfighter was fun luhs!
i was hogging on to it, until baby went like
: ehs, 15 mins up ler lehs.

hahas, so after buying de mouse we headed for pet shop
was finding good shampoo for my baobei jackjack.
went in kiddy shop [[:
both baby and i talking and plaing with kiddy stuffs
hahas.

headed for dinner at billy bombers,
okay larhs.
but their milk shake is like kenasai.
happily chatting until we called for de bill.
hahas, this is de funny part luhs.
baby had 36 bucks and de bill was 50 bucks
we had no choice but to call for ppl.
peckpeck was left with last 10 so nvm
stephii was still at office , so nvm too.
called L. and YES! L deposit 30 bucks into baby account.
hahas, damn kuku larhs de 2 of us,
thanks L sooo much.

so baby dint send me home but baby pei me wait for train to come.
i slept in de train lor, lucky i woke up at marsling.
if nt really will overshot.
tsktsk.
lucky got a few coins ith me, cause took bus marhs.
wanted to sleep in de bus but hor.
i know tht i will overshot so i force myself to be awake.
hahas,

came home changed talked to baby on de phone for a few mins.
went to bring my jackjack for walkie.
today i tried something special
i didnt leash him until he went down and pee.
but still being afraid i leash him right after he pee.
walked a big big round.
so when we were blocks away from my home.
i unleash him again, and he walked beside me.
i am so damn happy larhs.
but when we reach my block, right under my block.
he just wanted to pee.
so he ran fast towards de playground.
i chase him luhh.
but thank god he was just wanting to pee.
hahas. so call him over to de life area.
once reach 7 floor,
he ran towards de direction of whiskey boy house
cause snowy was there too. :D
he kaypoh for a while den didnt wanna go home until i left.
hahas
silly dog right. :D
washed his pawpaws and bumbum cause he poop-ed.

now here i am , wanting to play Restaurant City but
cannot play, nvm i gonna sleep soon.
tmr gg to fetch baby off work and head to hougang :D

and there de puffywaffy is sleeping on his cushie.
hahas, waiting for me to go in :D

nights people.

Saturday, April 18, 2009 { 2:43 AM }

people to do this. : baby eden, theeree , wanting and whosoever wanna do larhs

Write the names of 21 friends you can think off the top of your head, and then answer the questions. After doing this, tag your friends to do the same.

1. bea
2. jarrell
3. yiling
4. yongling
5. tammy
6. alicia toh
7. baby eden
8. peckpeck
9. wanting
10. chuifann
11. weiwei
12. theeree
13. kok
14. teckmeng
15. sarah mokk
16. baoling
17. elynn
18. stephi
19. victor
20. jierui
21. siti
{not in order k}

How did you meet 7?
thru some friends.
What would you do if you and 15 had never met?
wha! den no one will ever oversleep with me during camps
What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?
omfg, they will nvr turn crook larhs
Have you ever seen 17 cry?
yes, and i made her cry. bleahh XD
Would 4 and 16 make a good couple?
never, both are girls larhs
Do you think 11 is attractive?
of cause, my girlgirl lehs
What’s 2’s favorite color?
GREEN.
When was the last time you talked to 9?
talk as in face to face or over de web?
What language does 8 speak?
cheena and hokkien.sometimes some language which i dun understand. :3
Who is 13 going out with?
his riffle in his camp. XDXD
What grade is 16 in?
working ler larhs dey
Would you ever date 17?
never in my life hor, she's my good friend, my neighbour
Where does 18 live?
batok if i am nt wrong bahs
What is the best thing about 4?
hahas.very crazy and joyful
What would you like to tell 10 right now?
girl arhs,outing soon ok. :D
What is the best thing about 20?
my seeee-niorrrrrr. funny at times.
Have you ever kissed 2?
ehs, my one and only god-bro lehs
What’s the best memory you have of 5?
all de shit things we do tgt. :D
When’s the next time you’re going to see 4?
idk lehs. still waiting for her to be freee.
How is 7 different from 6?
6 is my ite friend. 7 is my baby :D
Is 1 pretty?
she always thinks she is, actually she is mature.
What was your first impression of 15?
anime freakkkk,and very good artist
How did you meet 3?
secondary school :D
Is 7 your best friend?
my best friend,my baby,my everything
Do you hate 12?
for whad? crazy arhs. my erzi lehs
Have you seen 18 in the last month?
nvr worhs.dunno how is she lerhs.
When was the last time you saw 16?
last year in school.
Have you been to 5’s house?
YES! i love her bed.
When’s the next time you’ll see 10?
on de 26, whahaha.
Are you close to 11?
of cause. but nt everytime meeting up
Have you been to the movies with 4?
yeaps, very noisy at times. tsktsk
Have you gotten in trouble with 8?
idk lehs. peckpeck very farnie larhs.
Would you give 19 a hug?
erm, idk worhs.
When have you lied to 3?
why must i lie to her? siao
Is 11 good at socializing?
yeaps. very outgoing.
Do you know a secret about 8?
dunno lehhs. hahas. peckpeck u got any secrets to tell me marhs.
Describe the relationship between 12 and 18?
nth, they dun even knw each other.
What’s the best thing about your friendship with 9?
MY FEEEL partner.
What’s the worst thing about 6?
very quiet.
Have you ever had a crush on 12?
huh, never larhs. i am attach u knw.
How long have you known 2?
7 years lerhs.
Does 11 have a gf/bf?
no, but got lonely soul. hahas.
Have you ever wanted to punch 1 in the face?
erm, nvr cause she is ever funny.
Has 21 met your mother ?
of cause, primary sch friend lehhs.
How did you meet 11?
working in new town.
Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3?
idk lehs. hahas
Do you live close to 7?
no, i wish to. hor baby.
What is 8’s favorite food?
prawns and SOTONG. hahas.
What kind of car does 1 have?
hahas, i dun even know when she gg to enroll for driving
Have you traveled anywhere with 9?
ehs, no lehs. maybe sch to sch bahs. hahas
If you gave 14 $100, what would they spend it on?
wha, buy hamsup mag arhs he. hahas. or buy comics. :D

Thursday, April 16, 2009 { 3:35 AM }

Perhaps, I am really an 'Anxiety Girl'.
Fast to jump to the worst conclusion in a single bound.
But then again, please never ever blame me for being like this.
I care, and I really do.
That's why I act this way.
And maybe thats why i'm always wrong too.

{ 2:49 AM }

i am trying my best to help u lerhs.
but can gimmi time marhs.
i m trying lers.
i am really trying ler
can u see it or feel it?

idkidkidkidkidk.

everythingidoseemstogooffwheneverijuststarttopickmyselfupagain.
itsucksahellupoftimeyouknowthat.whocanunderstandwhatiamgoingthru.

Labels: iamtrying

{ 2:11 AM }

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

this is rather true larhs.
hahas

Saturday, April 11, 2009 { 3:06 AM }

how much does gfs noes
about their bfs.
hehs this is to test myself.

chocolates: (a 140% must)
ferro roche'
hello panda chocolate
hello panda strawberry
kinder bueno
kinder surprise
m & m's milk
m & m's peanut
oreo
pocky chocolate
pocky strawberry
yamyam chocolate
yamyam milk
yamyam strawberry

drinks:
f & n grape
pokka green tea (no.1 fave)
bundung

ice-cream:
chocolate
cookies & cream

food:
baby is not picky over food.
but baby favs are
korean food
japanese omelette fried rice
miso soup
miso ramen
nacho cheese, extra cheese
fish & chips
grilled chicken
macaroni & cheese
chicken wings
prawn-noodles
la-mian
hor-fun
mui-fan
tim-sun
yong-tau-foo

colors:
black
blue
grey
lime.green
orange
pink
red
silver
white

shoes size:
same as mine
8.5

shirts size:
mens size range from L to XXL
cause baby wanna cover his big belly :D

shorts / pants size:
34-38
around L to XXL

sports brands:
absolut (fantastic vodkas)
adidas (sports apparel & accessories)
akira (cheap & good electronic home appliances)
crumpler (bags)
deuter (backpacks)
honda (cars)
hyundai (cars)
ikea (innovative home ideas)
molten (basketballs)
nike (sports apparel & accessories)
sony (everything)
subaru (cars)
tefal (pots & pans)
pioneer (car audio systems)

animals:
baby loves animals
except those flying kaka.
hehes.

Wednesday, April 8, 2009 { 1:30 AM }

saw this story on wantings blog,
decide to share it with ur too.

MARRIAGE

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. I know how her heart could not bear to hear my last words now. I still carried her, my last one...this time with my wreatched heart.

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

{ 1:04 AM }

so many ups and downs.
idk idk idk.
how can i be able to go pass it?
i miss playing bball.
anyone? thou i know all de mid years are around de corner.
but still bball anyone?

still thinking about tmr,
should i or should i not?
sometimes i shall shut myself up and think for others.
what can i do.
sometimes its hard that idk what i should really do.
yes sometimes i do have my fault.
i admit sometimes whenever u nag or sowhatever at me,
my brain seems to wander off.
grrrr. i am mad about myself being liddat.
why am i scared ?
what am i scared off ?
someone fill me in quick.

iam lost in my very own world.

please, someone please.
tell me what is my wrongs.
i am starting not to understand myself already.
did we start off too early?
i dun understand u sometimes.
you keep things from me,
and i keep things from u.
are we really in love with each other?
idk, i really dunno.
please tell me.

Labels: lost in my own world

Saturday, April 4, 2009 { 2:54 AM }

greetings earthlings [:

well, back to blog both in vox and here bahs.
well was changing de water for xiaobei and guess what,
the very kaypo jackjack came in to check what i was doing.
so i decided to put xiaobei on de toilet floor.
and for a moment i tot jackjack was about to eat her or something cause he is damn greedy.
but to my surprise ,
he began to lick xiaobei.
hahas

that cute little darling. aiyoooooo
like what baby says. he does know how to melt ppl hearts.
he is sleeping now on my bed.
he came out to bark because of de tv sound of a dog bark,
and this gongfart tot its my neighbour or something.

Thursday, April 2, 2009 { 3:01 AM }

WAYS TO END ONE's LIFE

The list:
1. Jump down from a super tall building (so that one will die before he/she reach the ground)
2. Swallow & gobble down a bottle of insomnia pills
3. Cutting wrist (only dumb people do that)
4. Taking in carbon monoxide (by sleeping in an 'on-engine' car)
5. Sudden dash to middle of the road,hoping some vehicle to knock onto that person (crazy.! cause there are traffic lights.)
6. Jump into the MRT track when train arriving (dumb.! cause there are camera around)
7. By drowning him/herself ( very dumb cause it's hard if you know how to swim)
8. Stab him/herself in the stomach with a knife ( it's pain cause it's your flesh)

I found out that no. 4 may be the best way. Not much suffering. LOL!This is how negative one may think when they are really depressed. When the most important thing in their life just shattered into bits & pieces.

well. sometimes i really feel like doing it. cause it will end all my problems nd troubles. so peaceful when you die.

{ 1:21 AM }

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Disappointment
Death
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

rather true ehhs. [[[: