Tuesday, January 13, 2009
{ 10:28 PM }
ok. i feel so bloody lost right now
sometimes its very hard to think like a adult.
cause maybe i dunno anything.
but its been hard on you.
i maybe de cause that you been covering up for me.
thank you and i'm sorry.
beryl! beryl! please do wake up.
what is wrong!. i dun feel myself again.
i dont wanna grow up anymore.
Where's the universal remote!?
am i selfish?
i think i am you know.
cause it seems that i have never feel for you
i'm sorry baby.
but i hope that one day i would understand .
i am trying to. i seriously am.
with everything liddat in my mind now.
what can i do to make you happy.
spending every moment with you is my joy.
i dunno if you ever felt happy with me or so watever.
i know you understand me.
but i'm still so sorry.
everything in my mind now is spinning.
am i de right one for you.
if i'm not please smack me up.
it like how one of de song from PCD ( When I Grow Up) say.
every one is thinking about what they want when they grow up.
but sometimes. are we able to get de stuffs we want when we really grow up.
maybe some people does. but to think of it. some dont.
but whats is de reason behind it.
i dunno. beats me. anything i do it seems so wrong.
i know i'm in de wrong i'm sorry.
i will change for de better alrights.
time is so short yet you can get to do one thing at a time.
is this how we are suppose to enjoy life.
beats me.
think of it.
7 days in a week.
some friends of mine are like. living their lifes away.
some may be better cause they have their bf/gfs to be there to support them
some like oyz (rich kid) that has everything planned for them.
well. where do i fit myself in.
nt sure. or is my life suppose to be short or something.
crap man.
well. GROW UP BERYL!
work your ass off and get everything done.
FUCK MAN!
i hate quarrells. i seriously hate it.
maybe i am de cause that we started all this.
ok i'm sorry.
i'm getting super tired, mentally.
words fall out of my mouth and
i cant seem to trace what i’m saying
i expected much more,
but i received so much lesser.
it's demoralising seriously,
i dont even know how to reactit all seem so fake now
bring me back to life.
PLEASE BRING ME BACK!
-i wish i could find the words to say
i wish i could save these moments and
put 'em in a jar i wish i could stop the world from turning
keep things just the way they are
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